Music Tells My Stories

There's that blank page again. Staring at me. Daring me to change the pure simplicity of the clean, fresh, white page into something fun, useful, interesting. Pristine, the page challenges me to put my thoughts into words. It pecks at my subconscious, a steady dripping faucet in a silent house. What can I share with you today? How am I feeling? What tidbit can I pass along to you?  To start with, greetings, my Lovelies! (Yes. I decided on a nickname for you all and after much consideration, Lovelies seems apt.) I have so many directions I can take this blog, but I'm finding that I really enjoy the randomness of my topics. When I started this I assumed that I would be talking quite a bit about my books, and/or explicit topics and situations, hence the warning each time you pop in to read the fruition of my insanity. However, if you have been with me since day one or have read through my past blogs, you can see that I've let my mood and current events/situations guide my path

Greetings faithful followers! (You guys seriously need a nickname. Suggestions?) I come to you this morning having gone through a night without any sleep whatsoever, followed by a night of broken sleep. With any luck, this blog will make sense and not just be an array of disconnected, rambling thoughts. Let's talk about dreams. There are dreams we have of how we want our lives to be, dreams of our future, our children's futures. There are dreams we have that are more existentially encompassing, peace, love, hope. There are actual dreams, those captivating, odd, hopeful, scary, and sometimes sexual scenes that take over our brains while we sleep. (Why do I suddenly feel like I'm in a bad production of Les Mis?) We have so many different ways that we dream and our dreams are important to our health and well-being. In college I took a psychology course that I absolutely loved. One of our assignments was to write a massive paper about the meaning of dreams. I may well have been

 Greetings my faithful followers and welcome to another episode of "Shelly is probably losing her mind." Buckle up, please keep your arms and legs inside the car at all times, settle back and hold on tight. Would you like a pair of 3-D glasses? This week (hell probably longer than that) has been a struggle for me. My mind has raced while my body has refused to move. I've not been able to gather my thoughts so writing has been all but non-existent. I've found that I've had to force myself to get up and move, force myself to plan and prepare dinner for my family, force myself to do my job. I've had to force myself to care, to care at all about anybody and anything. Depression. Most of the time I move through life without a hint of it showing, to the point that you might not know I'm affected by it. I live and do day-to-day things by normal standards. I talk to family and friends as if nothing is wrong. I laugh, joke and carry on, enjoying the craziness of th

 Forgive me, faithful followers, for I am two days late releasing my blog. I would try to justify this, but let me leave you with two words instead. Life. Employment. Let me begin by saying that each and every time I sit down to write this blog I find myself wondering if I should be using this platform for truly important matters. Should I be writing about the state of our Country? Should I be discussing political matters, or other important topics? Would it be better if I tried to make a difference by enlightening my friends and followers with my own beliefs? The answer is a resounding, NO! I feel we are bombarded by things like this on a daily, minute by minute, even, basis. Don't you want a break? I sure as hell need one. Also, who's to say that what I spout here isn't just as, if not, more important? To that I say, let's talk about relationships. There are many different kinds of relationships, connections we have through blood or marriage, or make with the people w

Happy New Year! I hope 2021 brings us all happiness and some much-needed relief from the miseries heaped upon us in 2020. I was going to blog yesterday, but one thing and another got in my way and it just didn't happen. When I woke this morning I was given some news that makes me happy and sad at the same time. So I'm glad that whatever forces worked against my blog made their appearance, and caused me to share this with you instead of the trite crap I was ready to spout yesterday. A little background for you. After my failed, but amazingly fun, one-year attempt at college right out of high school, I had no direction for where I was going or what I wanted to do with my life. I took a job at a restaurant, then a grocery, then a T-shirt factory. (Just to fill you in on my ambition and work ethic, before I left that factory I could do every damn job they had.) By the end of my time at the factory, I was floundering. Floundering with career decisions, floundering in my first marria