Don't Cry Out Loud

Greetings, my Lovelies! It has been a week since you've dealt with my insanity. Are you ready for more? There has been so much going through my mind over the past week. If you've kept up with me at all you know that insomnia is my new norm. "I'm tired boss... Mostly I'm tired of people being ugly to each other." (Y'all know I had to say that, right? The Green Mile is such an awesome movie!) Work has been crazy, I've had no time to myself with the exception of the hour to and from the job site, and as of this morning, I've had absolutely no time to write. 

It's that last one that is bothering me the most. You see, my writing is my creative outlet. It is a way for me to process all that I'm feeling and thinking. It is a way for me to put my hopes, dreams, and wishes into a tangible form. It is a way for me to actualize problems I'm facing, and a way for me to find a solution to those problems. And when I'm writing, I always have music playing which touches a whole other part of my creativity.

Not having time to write equates to me not having time for my music, at least not as much time as I would truly love to have. I've said repeatedly how much music is an intrinsic part of me, and I truly mean that. Without it? I'm not sure I would survive. I'm not sure I would even want to survive. Music touches me in a way that nothing else can. I have to hear it, I have to feel it, I have to play and sing.

Yes, I put on a concert each and every time I get in my truck. I'm sure my fellow road warriors get a kick out of seeing me driving next to them. It doesn't matter if I'm going ten minutes down the road or making a 14-hour trip home, I'm going to be singing the whole trip. 

I do have a problem though. I have a few songs that I can't sing. Oh, not because I can't actually sing the songs, but because I can't make it through the songs without losing my shit. Yep! I have a few songs that I've tried to sing over and over and I just can't. I burst into tears before I'm half-way through the first verse. I can't help it. It's all part of that empath thing.

Go ahead and laugh at me. I'm a sap. I'm okay with it. Do you want to know a couple of those songs? Well, let me just tell you so that you can see how much of a sap I truly am. 

1. You'll Be in My Heart from Tarzan   (Yes, this one tops my list. I. Just. Can't.)

2. When She Loved Me from Toy Story 2

3. Baby Mine from Dumbo                    (Damn you, Disney!)

4. A Million Dreams from The Greatest Showman  (I blame this one on my child's 5th-grade teacher. That end-of-year montage tore me up! I sat my ass right there in the auditorium and bawled!)

5. The Greatest Man I Never Knew by Reba

Okay, there's my top five. I swear, I absolutely can't sing these songs without bursting into tears. Sometimes, depending on my frame of mind, I can't even listen to them. Someone, anyone, please tell me that I'm not the only one who has these issues! I know I'm crazy, simply insane at times, but I can't possibly be the only one this happens to!

Wow, I feel better getting that off my mind. I told you when I started this blog that I wasn't going to hold back. If you follow me you're going to see parts of me that are awesome, crazy, ugly, weird, beautiful, and, most of all, 100% me. I hope you're prepared.

As always...


Much love from me to you!

Shelly (a/k/a Dawn Love)

Erotic Romance author. Self-published on Amazon. I love a happy ending. Yes, I mean that in more than one way.

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