Music Tells My Stories

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! I hope the sun is shining in your part of the world and that you are having a beautiful day! It is cold, rainy, and dreary here today and I'm feeling it. I want nothing more than to snuggle under the covers and hide until the sun appears, but no...I have to work. The good news is that I'm working from home today so at least I can be a bum and nobody is going to comment on it. Well, unless one of the cats decides to give me side-eye. We'll see. How has my week been? I'm not sure I know where to begin. I suppose I should tell you that I'm still dealing with a major depressive episode. I know part of this is simply due to exhaustion. I cannot find the energy to do anything. Or, maybe my exhaustion is a direct symptom of my depression? Either way, it is a malicious fucking circle that I can't seem to break. I constantly ask myself if I'm trying to do too much. My answer is always the same. Yes. Yes, I'm trying to do too much but

Good evening, my Lovelies! Happy Friday and happy weekend! I hope that you've all had an amazing week and that you found something or had an experience that made you smile. I certainly have and though I wish I could share some of those things with you, I simply can't. Not yet. One of these days... maybe. So, my question to you today is, throughout your life did you ever meet someone and know that if you let yourself fall for them that they would break your heart? Did you let yourself fall anyway or did you protect yourself and walk away? I mean, I had guys that I fell for who broke my heart, but I don't know that I ever made myself step back and not fall for someone because of the knowledge that the pain was inevitable. I never had someone enter my life that had heartbreaker written all over them. I never had to purposefully avoid someone to keep my heart intact. Now, I'm sure you're wondering why I'm asking this. Obviously, I'm doing some story research, bu

Good morning, my Lovelies! Happy Saturday! I hope you are having an amazing weekend, whatever your plans may be. I have a full day of writing planned, but I desperately needed to get some thoughts out of my head so that I can concentrate. Hopefully. And lucky you, you guys are the recipients of my angst, my depression, and the disappointment that I've felt this week! Let me explain if I can. I know, and you know, that unless you've been blessed by the gods, have fallen into a pot of gold, or are just one of those people that fate smiles upon, things take time. I am NOT one of those people. (Never have been. Never will be.) It takes time to build a platform. It takes time to get your name out there. It takes time to see success in your endeavors. I try my hardest to be patient, but I'm so frustrated right now. I can't seem to get my books into the hands of the "right" people. And by that I mean, people who have a massive following who can be influential in gett

Good evening, my Lovelies! It has been a full month since I've blogged and I hardly know where to begin. I mean, first things first, I sincerely hope that you all are doing well and that you had wonderful holiday celebrations. My holiday was good but stressful. I certainly don't feel that I found any time to relax and unwind while I was off and I find that very frustrating. I traveled. And while it's always great to see family, this trip finds me returning home completely exhausted. Truthfully, there was no part of this holiday that felt like Christmas to me. The constant worry over my parents and their health combined with being needed for one thing or another every five minutes just absolutely wore me out. I mean, I didn't even go for a drive to see Christmas lights and that is one of my favorite things to do during the holidays. I honestly feel like I need another week off to recover. And here is one more thing that I'm going to be 100% honest about: I have not w