Just a Girl

Good morning, my Lovelies!

It's Sunday and I'm in a mood. Hopefully, you are well and so is your mental health. Mood? Yes. A mood. Multiple moods. I'm all over the place this morning.

I haven't felt well for a couple of days (negative COVID test, so not part of my issues).

I'm frustrated, disappointed, and resigned to know some of the things I deal with on a daily basis will continue to frustrate and disappoint me. I'm frustrated that I haven't been able to write. I'm uninspired. I'm blocked. I'm floundering. I had plans for this weekend that had to be postponed. Unfortunately for me, I really needed those plans to come to fruition. And there are multiple other things that have brought me nothing but disappointment and heartache.

I'm unhappy. Oh, we make our own happiness, right? Yeah, well, the people that we choose to have in our lives are supposed to contribute to that happiness in some manner. When that doesn't happen, it's hard to manifest happiness for ourselves.

I'm bitchy. I'm not normally a bitchy person, but I am straight-up feeling my inner bitch and it is a struggle not to turn her loose and let her wreak havoc on whoever crosses her path. Friends and family should be thankful that I have such restraint.

I'm sad. Yes, I'm sad.  I'm sad that I always seem to put more effort into things/relationships than others. I'm sad that the people who are the most important to me, rarely seem to have thoughts of me cross their minds. (I mean, if they did, they would reach out and/or show it, right?) I'm just sad.

I'm sure there's more, but the best summation of it all is that I'm in a mood. I despise feeling this way. It doesn't happen often, but when it does it drains me. I suppose it's a good thing that I'm going away in a few days. Hopefully, I'll be able to center myself and get back on track.

If not, heaven help you all.


Until next time and as always,


Much love from me to you!


Shelly (a/k/a Dawn Love)

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Erotic Romance author. Self-published on Amazon. I love a happy ending. Yes, I mean that in more than one way.

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