Music Tells My Stories

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! It has now been more than two weeks since I last blogged and I have so much going through my head that I don't know where to begin or what for sure I want to talk about. Personally, I have some things going on, some relationships that have become unstable, and I'm hurt and at a loss as to why those things are happening. Globally, I'm angry, sad, frightened, and worried about the direction my country has gone and is headed. Professionally, which comes back to the personal side, I'm struggling. Actually, I'm more than struggling, I feel like I'm suffocating, my light growing dimmer with each passing moment. Maybe my imposter syndrome is just being obnoxiously prevalent right now, but I'm having a hard time figuring out why anyone would read my writing. Maybe that's because my sales and page reads have taken a major nose-dive, maybe that's because my Patreon isn't growing as it once was, maybe it's because I've l...

Good morning, my Lovelies! How ya doin’? Me? Well, it is a hot and humid Thursday here on the eastern shore and hot and humid means that I’m freakin’ miserable. I don’t like hot. I don’t like humid. I belong where it never gets above 75 degrees. But, as that simply isn’t an option for me right now, I guess I’ll suffer along and complain like everyone else. So, it occurs to me after speaking with some of you recently that there are still some of you under the misconception that I’m too sweet, too innocent, or too naive, to write smutty books. (By the way, I figured out finally that ‘smutty books’ is the best description for my writing. I’ll explain shortly.) Well, let me just go ahead and burst y’all’s little bubble – I’m not too naive, too innocent, to write smutty stories. Although, yes, I’m sweet. (If you didn’t go where my mind went with that then maybe YOU are the one that is too naive and innocent.) I assure you that my brain has slid down that stripper pole straight into th...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! Once again I'm later than intended to get this blog post out to you. But I really do have a good reason. You see, this week has been a huge week in our household. My oldest graduated from high school Friday night and we are now preparing for college. It was kind of a whirlwind of a week. So, please forgive me for just now getting around to sharing with you all. How's your week been? I hope it was wonderful and that life is giving you sunshine and roses! I'm getting ready to do something. I'm getting ready to do something that is making me extremely nervous. Many of you know that I've been writing poems and short stories for a while now (along with my books). I had even played around with the idea of putting all of these in a book. And while that may very well happen one day, I've changed my mind (once again) on how I want to put those out to everyone to read.  Last year I started a Patreon page. And while it was great and I enjoyed m...

Good morning, my Lovelies! How ya doin’? Getting enough sleep? Exercise? Are you drinking your water? I can tell you straight up that those answers for me would be no, no, and not nearly enough. I’m tired, y’all. And it’s not just a physical tired – I’m tired within my soul. I had wanted my blog this week to be back to my funny stuff, my sexy stuff, my interesting stuff, but I’m just not feeling it. This week has been hard and I’m simply heartbroken with all that has and continues to happen in the United States. It seems that not a day goes by without there being a mass shooting and it is absolutely devastating. I try my best not to be overly political – you have your beliefs, I have mine. I respect that and hope that if we disagree on matters, we can do so without hate and malice towards each other. I’m always willing to listen to varied opinions and beliefs and to have meaningful conversations about differences, thoughts, and ideas. But it seems that there are many people who w...

Good morning, my Lovelies! Happy Friday and hallelujah! The weekend is here! How’s everyone? I hope that your week has been kind to you and that you are going into the weekend with a positive and happy outlook. If not, I hope your favorite vice helps you cope and you come out the other side with renewed energy for the week ahead. I’ve spent some time this week reflecting on different areas of my life, things that have happened to me through the years, things I’ve allowed to happen to me through the years. There’s been good, there’s been bad (I mean…everyone has those times, right?) Maybe it’s the fact that we are preparing for my oldest to graduate high school, but the reminiscing and evaluating have reached peak levels. I’ve thought about things as simple as playing basketball in my backyard, chasing our dogs through the neighborhood, and riding bikes for hours on end. I’ve thought about the nights at the skating rink, the nights I spent driving a continual loop, hour after hour, ...

Good morning, my Lovelies! It's Friday and I'm so damn glad that I might have to do a happy dance. Is it me or has it seemed that this week would go on forever? Yeah, yeah. It's probably just me. I hope that somehow, someway, you found a reason to smile this week. You know what else? I hope that the reason you smiled was because of something so outrageously naughty that you had to keep the reason you were smiling to yourself - just your little secret. On the other hand, if that actually did happen, please feel free to share it with me. I'm in desperate need of inspiration. I feel like I've hit a brick wall with my imagination. I desperately want and need to be writing, and I just can't seem to get my brain going down the dirty path that it normally follows. I recently did a poll on my Instagram story and there were quite a few really good ideas that were suggested for naughty book ideas. I thought that seeing those suggestions might spark something, but for some...

Good morning, my Lovelies! ‘Tis a cold, rainy day here in Delaware, but I hope the sun is shining and brightening your little part of the world, wherever that may be. Have you had a reason to smile this week? If not, I hope you find one today. So, I went last Sunday and had my newest tattoo worked on some more. I’m now at a total of four sessions on this particular one, and there’s room for me to add more to it. I absolutely love it! But as I’ve been tending to it this week it got me thinking about scars and my body. My body will never be “perfect”. Not in my eyes nor anyone else’s and I’ve spent the majority of my life trying to come to terms with that. It is unbelievably hard to keep in mind that I’m enough, physically, mentally, and emotionally, but though it is hard, I keep trying. My body has had trauma – insignificant events and major events. When I was five or six years old, I was playing at the baseball field while my brother and his team were having a game. Of course, ...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! It has now been the better part of two weeks since you've heard from me. Have you missed me? Gracious, so much has happened during that time span! Before I begin...how ya doin'? Is life treating you well? Happy and healthy? I certainly hope so! So what has been going on with me? Well, first off, I didn't mean to go so long without blogging. Sorry about that! But, well, life. Second, if you didn't know, I spent last weekend in New York City with my youngest and some friends. It was a fun, but very exhausting trip.  What did we do? We visited Times Square, saw Beetlejuice the musical (I cannot tell you how absolutely phenomenal this show is!), we ate brunch in a cafe, visited shops and bakeries, and, of course, had a slice of one of the finest pizza pies I've ever had. (Ok, so quite a bit of our trip revolved around food. It happens.) Picture this - It is a beautiful spring day. The sun is shining, and the birds are singing. You're sit...

Good morning, my Lovelies! Happy Easter to those of you who celebrate in one way or another! I hope you've had an amazing week and for those of you who have been on, or are going on Spring Break, I hope that you've found time to relax, rejuvenate, and refocus on the priorities in your life. Well, y'all...I did it! I got my website made and it is up and running. You want to know what else? I did it without a damn bit of help from anybody else. And as fucking frustrating as it was to get done, as fucking annoying as it was to ask for help and get no response (not even an "I wish I knew so I could help you."), I'm proud of myself for figuring it out and making it happen. (Now, before she reads this and bitches, I did have one friend to connect me with someone that offered a suggestion, the problem being that I had already taken steps on my own and there was no turning back to start the process over. - Love ya, Boo!) I know that probably doesn't make much sens...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! It's a bright and beautiful Saturday morning and I am finally getting around to writing my blog for the week. Y'all. I give up. I'm just going to start aiming for Saturday mornings because any other time throughout the week seems to have gotten so busy that it just doesn't happen. So, at least for the time being, you can look for my blogs on the weekends. How are you doing? Did you sleep well? Have you had your coffee? If not, go grab yourself a cup and sit back and relax, prop your feet up and hold on tight. So, as usual in my frantic, cart before the horse, undiagnosed ADHD, let's do things as completely out of order as possible mind, I have once again taken a leap without thinking about the fact that there was probably a set of stairs that would have made my life much easier. What have I done? Well, I went and bought a website.  That's great, right? I now have a website! Well, not really. You see, I subscribed to a hosting service...