Music Tells My Stories

Good morning, my Lovelies! It's Sunday morning. It's game day. (Go Ravens!) I'm currently freezing my ass off and gulping coffee like it's a lifeline. I've had a rough couple of days and just felt the need to vent. I hope you are well and that your little dot on this world map is a bright, beautiful place this morning! Nightmare. Yes, I've used this song before - somewhat recently in fact. I felt it was fitting after the night terror I had last night. Yep. Night terror. I don't have them often, but when I do, it's bad. In fact, it is so much worse than just a simple nightmare. In my dreams, I can feel it coming. I can physically feel my body begin to draw in on itself. I can feel the trembling as it starts in my core and radiates out through the rest of me. I can feel the screams as they build. And I'm helpless to stop any of it. Why? Because along with my night terrors, I also get the joy of sleep paralysis. I can't move. Not at all. It is such ...

Good morning, my Lovelies! I hope this blog finds you doing well and that things are groovy in your part of the world. How's things in my world? My epic game of Frogger continues. I guess my getting food poisoning over the weekend was the equivalent of my froggy self getting splatted on the speed lanes. Good times. I actually started writing this blog a couple of nights ago and about halfway through it dawned on me that everything I was saying sounded horribly familiar. I had to go back and check myself. It turns out that I had already talked about that particular topic so I kind of started over again. I mean, I assume you guys don't need more details on the night my ex-husband stabbed me. We'll move along. Instead, let's talk about... Desire. Has there ever been someone that you craved beyond all logical reason? You just can't get enough of them. You think about them all day, dream about them at night, and they're the first thought on your mind when you wake in...

Good evening, my Lovelies! I wasn't going to blog again so soon, but I'm not having the best of days emotionally. I may publish this. I may not. We'll see. I don't know why it hit me so hard today but I'm seriously feeling the depression right now. The weird thing is that it didn't really hit until this afternoon. I've now spent most of the afternoon and this evening holding back tears that are threatening to fall. Depression is such a bitch. I mean, I had a great start to my day, and I got to have lunch with a long-time friend. We, as always, had an excellent conversation and just enjoyed each other's company. (And alcoholic beverages, which, goes without saying as being a good thing.) When we parted ways things were good. I wish I knew what flipped my switch. I wish I knew what it was that caused the world to come crashing down on me, but I'm clueless. Now I'm sitting here typing all this out, drinking some Smirnoff and trying to keep myself fr...

Good evening, my Lovelies! Gracious! I hardly know where to begin. This is my first blog of the new year and I would be remiss if I didn't take a moment to acknowledge everyone who started reading and following my blog over the past year. I've gained some amazing followers and new friends and I'm thankful to each and every one of you. The past year brought many changes and challenges. It also brought some heartbreak, but at the same time, it brought many heart smiles. I had many blessings and I'm grateful for them all. So what is it that I want to talk to you about tonight? I think I've touched on this before, but if you don't already know, I'm a very insecure person. I've had friends, family, and people that I love, to just walk away without looking back. I've always wondered what I did that made them leave or what I didn't do to make them want to stay. I've tried repeatedly to tell myself that their leaving falls on them and not me, but I...