Music Tells My Stories

Good evening, my Lovelies! Yes, I know, it’s been over two weeks since I last made a blog post. It’s been killing me, too! I hope life has been treating you kindly since we last spoke and I hope that you have plans this weekend that will bring you joy! So, why haven’t I done a blog post? Oh, where to begin? As you may or may not know, I have a child who has now left for college. I’ve spent the past few months trying to prepare this kid, organize this kid, and move this kid.  And then it finally happened. Last week we took my first-born and left them on campus three hours away from home. Driving away and leaving my baby was hard, and no amount of preparation made it any easier.  I actually took off work for the two days following the move with thoughts that I would probably not be of any use at the office. And I had, instead, planned on taking those days to write, to gather my thoughts, and to just get used to the fact that my child had taken this huge step. As it turned out, I...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! Forgive me. It has now been two weeks since my last blog. Why does saying that always make me feel like I’m at a confessional? I mean, I’m not even Catholic! Crazy! Anyway, I hope you are well, and that life has been kind to you since I last checked in. What’s been going on with me? Oh, you know, the usual. I’ve been working, writing, and trying to push my shit out on social media. And in the midst of all of this, I’m trying to get this kid of mine all set up for college. I’m happy and sad at the same time and it is absolutely exhausting. I’ve been doing quite a bit of thinking lately about myself and the people in my life. I will be the first to tell you that I can be a handful most of the time and it often makes me wonder how the people in my life put up with me. I should probably have a neon sign flashing over my head at all times that says “chaos” so that people are warned before approaching me of just what to expect. To be fair, I don’t intention...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! It’s Thursday and I’m so ready for the weekend! At least I think I’m ready for the weekend. I need major amounts of time to do some writing, but I have a bad feeling that I’m going to be spending a large portion of my weekend doing garden stuff. Yay…fun… Did you hear the sarcasm there? If not, believe me, it’s there. So how are you? I hope all is well and that you’ve found a reason to smile this week! I have a question for all of you who are in relationships, especially those of you in long-term relationships. But before I ask, let me see if I can lead you a little way down the path that I’m going rabbit down. When we’re in relationships we tend to go through stages sexually. There’s that initial can’t keep your hands off each other phase. You know what I mean, that phase where you can do nothing but think about getting home and getting a little (or a lot) wild and crazy. Then the heat from the fire that your relationship starts with simmers down so...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! How’s life? I hope you’ve had a wonderful week and are revving up for the upcoming weekend. Me? Well, I’ve been better – I’ve been worse. But it is what it is, and life goes on. What am I talking about? Oh, well that would be the all-out and absolute betrayal that my body has thrown at me over the past couple of years. Uhhh, what are ya talkin’ about, Shell? Oh, you mean you really want to know? Have you ever heard of a colposcopy? No, not a colonoscopy, a colposcopy. Well, basically it is a biopsy of your cervix. And what happens is that the doctor (in his office and under no anesthesia) cuts out a sampling of your cervix and sends it off to be tested for cancer. Fun stuff. Over the past couple of years I’ve had this done multiple times due to findings during my yearly checkups. Last year I was even lucky enough to have a LEEP procedure. What’s that? Oh, that’s when they go in there and cut out a larger portion of your cervix and then cauterize (burn) th...

Good morning, my Lovelies! It's Friday and while in some ways this has been a craptastic week, I'm in a fairly decent mood this morning! Maybe I'm just looking forward to the weekend, but as of right now, my depression/anxiety & ADHD are not working against me! How about you? Are you ready for the weekend? Do you ever just feel the need to let go? To just let go of all of your worries, responsibilities, and obligations? That's where I'm at today. I have this overwhelming need to just go somewhere for the night, get drunk off my ass, and forget everything that has been weighing on me. I know there are some of you who think that at my age I shouldn't be doing or even thinking about doing something like that, but I really don't give a fuck.  This is just one of the things that I enjoy about the girls' trip that my friends and I take to the Outerbanks. Bless them, they think like I do and look forward to the opportunity to just let go as much as I do. Jo...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! Let me take a moment to apologize for the fact that I haven’t been consistent with my blogging lately. As I said in my last blog, my mental health has absolutely been in a downward spiral. I’m working on it though. I will not let this feeling of defeat take me down. How about you? You good? Had a good week? If not, that’s alright. Hang in there, y’all, because I have it on good authority that things will get better. Now, I may or may not have touched on this before, I really can't remember and to be honest, I've run my mouth on here so much since I started this blog that it all kind of jumbles together sometimes. I try not to repeat myself, but sometimes a subject really resonates with me and after I've posted my blog I'll think of something else to say. But, I really do try not to pile the same shit on you guys over and over. (In fact, I'm OCD enough about it that I have a spreadsheet with a listing of all my blog titles and the dates...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! It has now been more than two weeks since I last blogged and I have so much going through my head that I don't know where to begin or what for sure I want to talk about. Personally, I have some things going on, some relationships that have become unstable, and I'm hurt and at a loss as to why those things are happening. Globally, I'm angry, sad, frightened, and worried about the direction my country has gone and is headed. Professionally, which comes back to the personal side, I'm struggling. Actually, I'm more than struggling, I feel like I'm suffocating, my light growing dimmer with each passing moment. Maybe my imposter syndrome is just being obnoxiously prevalent right now, but I'm having a hard time figuring out why anyone would read my writing. Maybe that's because my sales and page reads have taken a major nose-dive, maybe that's because my Patreon isn't growing as it once was, maybe it's because I've l...

Good morning, my Lovelies! How ya doin’? Me? Well, it is a hot and humid Thursday here on the eastern shore and hot and humid means that I’m freakin’ miserable. I don’t like hot. I don’t like humid. I belong where it never gets above 75 degrees. But, as that simply isn’t an option for me right now, I guess I’ll suffer along and complain like everyone else. So, it occurs to me after speaking with some of you recently that there are still some of you under the misconception that I’m too sweet, too innocent, or too naive, to write smutty books. (By the way, I figured out finally that ‘smutty books’ is the best description for my writing. I’ll explain shortly.) Well, let me just go ahead and burst y’all’s little bubble – I’m not too naive, too innocent, to write smutty stories. Although, yes, I’m sweet. (If you didn’t go where my mind went with that then maybe YOU are the one that is too naive and innocent.) I assure you that my brain has slid down that stripper pole straight into th...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! Once again I'm later than intended to get this blog post out to you. But I really do have a good reason. You see, this week has been a huge week in our household. My oldest graduated from high school Friday night and we are now preparing for college. It was kind of a whirlwind of a week. So, please forgive me for just now getting around to sharing with you all. How's your week been? I hope it was wonderful and that life is giving you sunshine and roses! I'm getting ready to do something. I'm getting ready to do something that is making me extremely nervous. Many of you know that I've been writing poems and short stories for a while now (along with my books). I had even played around with the idea of putting all of these in a book. And while that may very well happen one day, I've changed my mind (once again) on how I want to put those out to everyone to read.  Last year I started a Patreon page. And while it was great and I enjoyed m...

Good morning, my Lovelies! How ya doin’? Getting enough sleep? Exercise? Are you drinking your water? I can tell you straight up that those answers for me would be no, no, and not nearly enough. I’m tired, y’all. And it’s not just a physical tired – I’m tired within my soul. I had wanted my blog this week to be back to my funny stuff, my sexy stuff, my interesting stuff, but I’m just not feeling it. This week has been hard and I’m simply heartbroken with all that has and continues to happen in the United States. It seems that not a day goes by without there being a mass shooting and it is absolutely devastating. I try my best not to be overly political – you have your beliefs, I have mine. I respect that and hope that if we disagree on matters, we can do so without hate and malice towards each other. I’m always willing to listen to varied opinions and beliefs and to have meaningful conversations about differences, thoughts, and ideas. But it seems that there are many people who w...