Music Tells My Stories

Greetings my Lovelies! I know I have been very absent. Believe me when I say it was most definitely not intentional. It has been several weeks since I've actually sat down to blog and I'm feeling the need to pop the top on all the things I've been bottling up. But first, how are you doing? Are you eating and drinking right? Are you getting a little exercise to stretch those muscles and keep your body strong and healthy? Are you talking to someone about what's going on in your life? What you're feeling? I hope so. We all need to be able to unload every once in a while. Some of you may know, and some of you may not, but I'm not at home in Delaware right now curled up all snuggly in my bed. No. I received the bat signal last week and made a trip back home to Kentucky to care for my elderly parents. It seems that my father, in his efforts to care for his wife, the love of his life for over 55 years, has been failing to care for himself. He is not well, and after mul...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! Holy crap! I've managed to put out a blog without waiting weeks between. Who AM I? I hope everyone is doing well and that you're having the best of weeks! I'm good today. I know, I can't always say that to you and mean it. I appreciate the fact that you all allow me to share my world and whatever craptacular/spectacular thing is going on in it with you on a regular basis. This week I wanted to share a frustration with you. Actually, it isn't really a frustration so much as an annoyance. And what is that? Talking on the phone. (Or, not talking on the phone...) If you're Gen X, talking on the phone isn't a big deal - been there, done that for many a year now. Millennials? Eh... They'll do it if they absolutely have to. But you know they're silently chanting, "Dear God, please don't make me talk on the phone. Hurry up. I'm dying. Are you done now? Is it over? Can I hang up?" Any generation below that and th...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! Happy freaking Saturday! Y'all...I just looked at how long it has been since I blogged. I'm sorry. All I can say is...LIFE. So...how ya doinnnnn'??? I'm great - at least right now. That may change in a few minutes. Hormone fluctuations are a bitch. But, for now, all is sunshine and roses. For those of you who don't know, I've actually started trying to take a little better care of myself. Actually...I started this a while ago, but I'm finally beginning to feel the changes. I'm eating better, drinking my water, and I just recently started back to the gym. Yay, me! One thing that I haven't shared with you all is that at one point in time, I worked at a gym/fitness center. And as part of the perks, I worked out all the damn time. Yes, I was still overweight, but I felt great. Working out can be very addicting and I definitely found myself craving that high. I was working there when my second baby came along and once she arri...

Good morning, my Lovelies! How have you been? Good? Are you drinking your water and doing all those self-care things? I hope so. How am I? I'm here. I could go into all kinds of detail about how exhausted I am from being the one that holds everything together and being the one that everyone depends on, but evidently when I discuss these things I come across as whiney.  Who knew that having rational, calm discussions about what's happening in your life and how it makes you feel is classified as whiney? I certainly didn't.  I've never considered myself a whiney person.  I'm asked to do things at work (things clearly outlined in my job description), and I do them. I'm asked to do additional things at work, and I do them. I ask to be provided with the materials and equipment needed to do my job. If these aren't provided, I usually find a workaround. I certainly take on more than I should have to, do more than I have to, and for the most part, do so with a smile ...

Good morning, my Lovelies, and Happy Thursday! Gracious! I hardly know where to begin. Loki has entered the atmosphere. Chaos has been ruling my world for the past couple of days. Actually, let's make it the past couple of weeks. So I guess let's start with, how are you? I hope you're well and that your life has been much less of a shit show than mine has been.  What's been going on? Let me break it down. My work (my full-time, grown-up, put your big girl panties on and deal with it job) has had me running all over the state lately. I hardly know which direction I'm going most of the time. As of today, there is no end in sight and I have no expectation of things calming down any time soon. I'm working from home today and I've now had to go into town twice and it isn't even eleven a.m. (Please note "working from home" normally means that I don't have to leave the house until my job is done for the day.) I've had trouble logging into my w...

Good morning, my Lovelies! I've been absent and I'm so sorry. I've been preparing for this book release at the end of the month and I've just had a load of shit going on. I hope you are well and that you have had wonderful things happening in your corner of the world. I'm going to be so damn honest with you right now - I haven't been myself lately. Not at all! I've been emotionally and physically needy and that is absolutely not me. I like to think I shoulder my shit well and that for the most part, I'm a very independent person. But I swear I feel like I've been a whiny, pain in the ass over the past couple of weeks. I've shared with you before that I have some pretty serious depressive episodes at times, and yes, I have other things that fuck with me. (I exhibit all the symptoms of ADHD though I've never been diagnosed. I'm obsessive-compulsive, and to top it all off I have gradually worsening misophonia.) But what I've been feeling...

Good morning, my Lovelies and happy freaking Friday! I'm away at my writing retreat and have just sat down at the computer with my first cup of coffee for the day. It's definitely time to get my creative juices flowing. You see, when I got here yesterday I couldn't seem to settle. My brain simply wouldn't cooperate. So I spent time doing some editing instead of actually writing and even watched a movie for a change. Hopefully, I'm back on track and ready to get with the program this morning.  My question to you today is this: Am I the only one who has unrealistic but highly romantic and overtly sexual scenarios to play out in their head? Is that something that comes more naturally to me as I'm a creative person? Here's an example: I'm in a crowded room at some gathering or another and my anxiety is at peak levels. I'm standing next to a bar, a fruity concoction in my hand and my eyes constantly dart around the room, searching for something to focus o...

Good morning, my Lovelies! It's Sunday and I'm in a mood. Hopefully, you are well and so is your mental health. Mood? Yes. A mood. Multiple moods. I'm all over the place this morning. I haven't felt well for a couple of days (negative COVID test, so not part of my issues). I'm frustrated, disappointed, and resigned to know some of the things I deal with on a daily basis will continue to frustrate and disappoint me. I'm frustrated that I haven't been able to write. I'm uninspired. I'm blocked. I'm floundering. I had plans for this weekend that had to be postponed. Unfortunately for me, I really needed those plans to come to fruition. And there are multiple other things that have brought me nothing but disappointment and heartache. I'm unhappy. Oh, we make our own happiness, right? Yeah, well, the people that we choose to have in our lives are supposed to contribute to that happiness in some manner. When that doesn't happen, it's hard t...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies.  I hadn't intended to write a blog today, but what started out as a beautiful day for me has quickly deteriorated. And yes, I know I've used this blog title before, but on the days when the memories hit hard, this song comforts me. I'm sure you're all asking what changed and dimmed the brightness of my day. Well, I found out a couple of hours ago that a friend and former classmate of mine passed away this morning. And though I've not spoken to him in years, it breaks my heart, all the same. You see, his sister was one of my best friends growing up.  She was actually one of my attendants at the wedding of my first marriage. Bless her heart! She was so cute waddling down the aisle at seven-ish (I think) months pregnant. But, I digress. Her brother was possibly one of the kindest people I've ever known - in fact, their whole family just has an aura of kindness around them. I'll never forget the gentle teasing he always gave us, nor ...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! It is a cold but beautiful Wednesday here on the peninsula and I'm doing something that I do not do very often; I'm taking a day for myself. That's right. I took the day off work and am spending the day being a bit lazy. I've napped, I've read, and I'm seriously considering another nap. (Just kidding, but it's nice to know it's an option.) Anyway, I hope all is well in your corner of the world and that life is treating you well. This morning I made an Instagram post and I talked about my love/hate relationship with Valentine's Day. First, let me tell you that I truly have no problem with the day or the sentiment behind it. No, my problem with it comes from a personal situation. When my husband and I first got together he was very aware of little things like Valentine's Day - cards, small gifts, dinner out, etc. He never went overboard, but there was always something. It was the same for our personal anniversaries - th...