Music Tells My Stories

Good Wednesday morning, my Lovelies! Am I overwhelming you with blogs lately? I hope not. I hope the things I write about are entertaining, touching, or make you think about your own life and realize you aren't alone in your struggles, triumphs, and joys. We all need those connections, even if it comes from a stranger. I hope you're all doing well and are having a wonderful holiday season. Obviously, this year hits a bit different for me. In the past year and a half my father, mother, and aunt have all passed away. I also recently had the first man to EVER make me feel beautiful, sexy, and wanted - the man who rescued me from a really bad marriage, to suddenly die. So, yeah, this one is a bit rough for me. I know I have friends and family I can lean on, but it's still taking a toll on me. This is the first year since I moved from Kentucky that I've had nowhere else to go for the holidays. We used to trade off holidays, ya know? One year we would visit at Thanksgiving an...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies. I know, I know! Two blogs within one week? Crazy, right? I wish this was a happy, upbeat, encouraging one, but I'm definitely not in that frame of mind right now. Hell, I might not even publish this one. We'll see how I'm feeling after I purge all these thoughts. I'm hurt. I'm defeated. I'm so damn tired of dealing with the same old shit. Where to begin... Let's start with people's words not matching their actions. I'm having a real issue with people telling me they'll always be there for me and then when I reach out, they're not. Don't tell me you love me and want me in your life only to take days or weeks to get back to me when I call or text. That's not very "I'll always love you" of you. Going through your own shit? I get that. I'm here for you. As long as I'm on this earth, I'll be here for you. But if you won't even respond to me, how am I supposed to know you're suf...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! 'Tis four days before the release of Jaxon's Fate and five days before my birthday and all through the land things are not well.  Okay. I was going to get all cutesy and set that opening up like a play on The Night Before Christmas, but my creativity levels are just NOT there today. (Which is probably why I'm blogging instead of working on a book.) Okay...before I dive in here too far... How y'all doin'? Ya good? I truly do hope you are well and enjoying the holiday season - whatever that looks like for you. This time of year can be so hard for a multitude of reasons. Please promise me if you're having a hard time right now, that you'll reach out. Call a friend, a family member, a hotline... Hell...you can even message me. I don't give advice unless asked for, but I will always, and I do mean that wholeheartedly, ALWAYS listen. So, what's going on with me?  Sleep deprivation. I've had trouble sleeping off and on for y...

Good morning, my Lovelies! It has been a while since I've blogged and truthfully, I don't know if I would be blogging right now if I didn't need to get some things out of my head. Life has been a real struggle for me lately. I hope you all have been doing well. I know that is a stretch for many of you in the USA right now, but that is a whole-ass topic that I won't even begin to discuss at the moment. Y'all. I'm sad. I'm devastated. My heart has been shattered into a million pieces. One of my friends passed away this past weekend. It was very sudden and at this point, I don't know the cause. He was young and healthy. He took very good care of himself - always at the gym and running those Tough Mudder races, etc. So, my mind simply cannot process how this has happened. I wrote our story a while back and I'm so glad I did. It is one of the true stories I wrote into my newsletter-exclusive book, Truth, Lies & Fantasies. (If you would like to read it...

Good morning, my Lovelies! I kind of feel as if I should do the Catholic thing and say, "Forgive me, followers, I have sinned." It has certainly been a long time since I've laid my confessions/stories/thoughts/idiocy at your feet. Yet, here I am, asking you to pretend as if I never abandoned you. Do you still love me? I certainly hope so. My attention-whore self couldn't stand it if you didn't! Alright, let's dive right in. Since I talked with you last, I have attended two signing events - one in Biloxi, Mississippi, and the other in New Orleans, Louisiana. In my age-old wisdom I decided driving from my home to these events would be the best option as I needed to carry a LOT of stuff with me. Did I have great events? Yes! I got to visit with author friends and make new ones. I spoke with readers, new and old, and met so many amazing people! The authors, readers, influencers... simply the best! While I was gone I also got to spend a little time with friends and...

Good morning, my Lovelies! Happy Saturday! Y'all good? I certainly hope so. I know it has been a while since I've blogged and I apologize. Will you ever forgive me for leaving you temporarily? I'll be honest. I hadn't planned on blogging this morning, but I came outside to sit on my front porch in peace and quiet to write and research for my current work in progress and after only a half hour, found myself annoyed beyond comprehension. Let me set the scene. I have a 50-acre farm. However, my house sits very close to the road I live on. While I have no neighbors on either side of me (thank GOD!) I do have neighbors who live across the road. The ones who live across and to the left of me are older and while they are in their yard fairly often, are quiet and mind their own business. The neighbors across and to the right of me are an entirely different story. (And then my in-laws live next door to them! Ugh!) These neighbors somehow have three generations living in a garage...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! Let me just take a minute and thank you all for following along with my insanity. I know this blog has been all over the place, but if you truly know me, that tracks. If you're new here, welcome! Jump right in, take a seat, and get comfortable. Sit back and open yourself to my personal brand of crazy. So, how ya doing? I ask this question quite often but rarely get responses. I promise you guys are allowed to let me know what's going on in your lives, too! I'm going to take a moment and recap here just to catch everyone up on the constant stream of 'what the fuck' and 'oh, my God' that has been going on in my life over the past year or so. In May 2023 my father became ill. I took off work for a little over three weeks to go to Kentucky to see if I could help with his care and to look after my mother, a stage four cancer patient. We thought he was on the mend and in June I headed back to Delaware. As it turns out, he was not getti...

Good evening, my Lovelies! Let me start this blog off by saying I am in some kind of mood tonight! Whew! The sarcastic bitch is highly prominent and I am SUCH a joy to be around! I certainly hope your little corner of the world isn't occupied by someone similar. If so, may the odds be ever in your favor. Do I know what's put me in this mood? Not entirely. I can tell you it has been exacerbated by not being listened to when I have given clear direction as to my wants, needs, and expectations. Also, there was food involved and there are just certain times when it is safer to set the food I want in front of me and back away slowly. I used to think the hangry thing was something mostly prevalent in my family. However, in the past ten years or so I've found that many more are affected by this than I ever imagined. Mind-boggling! Tonight's issue wasn't so much the need for food as it was the need for specific food. It also had much more to do with the highly frustrating d...

Good morning, my Lovelies! Oh, my goodness! I can hardly believe it has been a month since I blogged. I've been completely and utterly swamped with life lately. How about you? Has life been good? Are you getting enough sleep? Are you drinking your water? If not - get your ass up and go get a bottle! Yeesh! I have spent the past month and a half going through my parents' belongings. It is unbelievably hard to decide what to keep, what to give away, what to sell. And while I totally get that my parents had fifty-five years worth of memories and belongings here, I find myself astounded daily that they managed to cram so much of those fifty-five years into a tiny, two-bedroom apartment and storage shed. It has been Hermione's magic purse around here. Every time I think I have a piece of furniture, a closet, or a room cleared out, I find more things hiding. My parents were prime hoarders, but I swear you would never have known it. My parents' home was always a spotless littl...