Music Tells My Stories

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! It is a rainy, lazy day here on Delmarva. How's things where you are? Ya good? Taking care of yourself? I certainly hope so! I'm sure you're extremely excited to read whatever nonsense I'm getting ready to throw out here. (The fun part of blogging for me is that I don't have any more idea of what I'm going to say than you do!) So, buckle up while I share what's on my mind today. I've recently been talking to a friend about a multitude of different things. My books, my life - things I've done. Seriously, we've covered a shit-ton of topics. (It's been fun getting caught up/getting to know each other a bit better.) As you guys have seen through the years, I really don't hold much back. That became obvious when our conversation turned to more sexual topics. Y'all know by now that I'll tell you what you want to know, right? (Just not some of my secrets... 😉) So, when discussions of body count came up, I an...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! It has been a hot minute! I know! I'm trying, y'all. I really am. I hope this blog finds you healthy, happy, and living your best life. Me? I've come an incredibly long way on the health front and feel better than I have in about 20 years. Happy? I'm working on it. Living my best life? I'm working on it. I'm just back from my first author signing event of the year and while I wish it had been a bit more successful for me as far as book sales, I did have a good time. It's always great to talk to readers and to see my book-world friends. I've been pretty busy working on this next book. I'm literally days away from having the first draft finished which is always an exciting time for me. Finishing one book and starting another? It's an amazing feeling. So what's on my mind today? Oh, I could load you guys up with all the bullshit that floats through my head. But today I think we'll talk about secrets. It's oka...

Greetings, my Lovelies! Yes, I know it has been over a month since I've blogged. My stress levels have been about to take me under. I hope you all are doing well and that life has been kind to you. I hope that YOU have been kind to yourself. We tend to be our harshest critics, whether personally, professionally, emotionally, physically, or otherwise. (I'm sorry, y'all - this one is going to be a long one.)  So, what's on my mind today? I suppose I want to talk about communication and how important it is. Look, I totally get not wanting to talk to people over the phone or even in person. I get that texting can be easier. Most of the time I feel the same way. And it's great for quick updates, planning nights out with our friends, or a quick check-in with family. Here's the thing - for the majority of people - if a text is more than three or four lines, they skim over it. They don't actually read it. I'm sure there are exceptions. As an author, this bugs th...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! I hope this blog finds you well and that you are living your best life. I also hope it finds you loved, and appreciated, and that the people in your life showered you with gifts yesterday to show you just how much you are loved and appreciated. Well, it happened. The depression has hit just as I knew it would, just as I told you in my last blog. Valentines Day was forgotten for me by the ones who say they love me, the ones I've given my heart to. I know I shouldn't let it get to me this way, but it does. And it sucks. It sucks to not feel the love that I'm told is there. I'm tired of crying. I've cried buckets for the better part of two weeks (not all prompted by the subject of this blog). Every time I think I have no tears left, more come pouring out of me. I'm tired of not feeling important. It would be lovely if words were backed up by actions. It would be lovely if when someone tells me they love me, they actually meant it instea...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! It is my greatest hope that this blog finds you healthy and happy. Me? I'm working on it. If you've been with me for a while you know that a few years ago I started going on a writer's retreat. I always scheduled it for sometime around Valentine's Day and there's a very good reason for that. For many people in committed relationships - married, dating, or whatever label you put on it - when Valentine's comes along, there are plans made. Some go to dinner, some give gifts, and some plan romantic evenings. Some people put a ton of effort into it - some minimal - but whatever level of effort, there is love shown. Somehow, those things have never happened for me. Ever. No matter who I've been with. I used to try to brush it off as no big deal, but over the past 10 years or so I've come to realize it IS a big deal - at least to me. I've never been taken to dinner on V-Day. I've never been given a gift other than an occasio...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! I wasn't going to blog today but I need to get some things out of my head. I've been in tears for the past two days and I can't seem to stop them from coming. I have a girls' night planned with friends for tomorrow and I should probably just wait and talk to them, but I can't think about anything else right now, so maybe if I write it down I can salvage something of this day. First, how y'all doin'? Is it cold where you are? Are you taking care of yourself? Drinking your water? Alright, here we go. With very, very few exceptions, my entire love/sex life has been made up of men: 1. Declaring their love for me just to keep me around as a backup. 2. Expecting me to always be waiting. 3. Telling me I'm beautiful simply to see if I'll fuck them. 4. Telling me they want me and want to be with me, then disappearing. They shove my entire existence into the back of a closet where they run across me five years later and pull me out...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! I am deep into writing the third book in my Mountain Mayhem series but I needed to come up for air. I keep hitting crossroads with this story and am questioning whether I've taken the correct path or not. I would love to dive into another story for a bit to see if I can let this one rest and unfold for me, but I'm afraid if I do I'll not meet my deadline. (BTW, the next time any of you hear me talking about putting a book up for preorder that I've not written yet, grab me and shake some sense into me. Okay?) Being able to bounce back and forth between stories usually helps me, but I could totally see myself getting sucked in and pushing this story to the side. So, anyway... How y'all doin'? Y'all good? Enjoying your new year so far? Getting some fresh air? Drinking your water? Taking care of your mental health? It's that last one that has been getting me lately, but I really don't want to talk about that today. Nope! Toda...

Good Wednesday morning, my Lovelies! Am I overwhelming you with blogs lately? I hope not. I hope the things I write about are entertaining, touching, or make you think about your own life and realize you aren't alone in your struggles, triumphs, and joys. We all need those connections, even if it comes from a stranger. I hope you're all doing well and are having a wonderful holiday season. Obviously, this year hits a bit different for me. In the past year and a half my father, mother, and aunt have all passed away. I also recently had the first man to EVER make me feel beautiful, sexy, and wanted - the man who rescued me from a really bad marriage, to suddenly die. So, yeah, this one is a bit rough for me. I know I have friends and family I can lean on, but it's still taking a toll on me. This is the first year since I moved from Kentucky that I've had nowhere else to go for the holidays. We used to trade off holidays, ya know? One year we would visit at Thanksgiving an...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies. I know, I know! Two blogs within one week? Crazy, right? I wish this was a happy, upbeat, encouraging one, but I'm definitely not in that frame of mind right now. Hell, I might not even publish this one. We'll see how I'm feeling after I purge all these thoughts. I'm hurt. I'm defeated. I'm so damn tired of dealing with the same old shit. Where to begin... Let's start with people's words not matching their actions. I'm having a real issue with people telling me they'll always be there for me and then when I reach out, they're not. Don't tell me you love me and want me in your life only to take days or weeks to get back to me when I call or text. That's not very "I'll always love you" of you. Going through your own shit? I get that. I'm here for you. As long as I'm on this earth, I'll be here for you. But if you won't even respond to me, how am I supposed to know you're suf...