Music Tells My Stories

Good morning, my Lovelies! I kind of feel as if I should do the Catholic thing and say, "Forgive me, followers, I have sinned." It has certainly been a long time since I've laid my confessions/stories/thoughts/idiocy at your feet. Yet, here I am, asking you to pretend as if I never abandoned you. Do you still love me? I certainly hope so. My attention-whore self couldn't stand it if you didn't! Alright, let's dive right in. Since I talked with you last, I have attended two signing events - one in Biloxi, Mississippi, and the other in New Orleans, Louisiana. In my age-old wisdom I decided driving from my home to these events would be the best option as I needed to carry a LOT of stuff with me. Did I have great events? Yes! I got to visit with author friends and make new ones. I spoke with readers, new and old, and met so many amazing people! The authors, readers, influencers... simply the best! While I was gone I also got to spend a little time with friends and

Good morning, my Lovelies! Happy Saturday! Y'all good? I certainly hope so. I know it has been a while since I've blogged and I apologize. Will you ever forgive me for leaving you temporarily? I'll be honest. I hadn't planned on blogging this morning, but I came outside to sit on my front porch in peace and quiet to write and research for my current work in progress and after only a half hour, found myself annoyed beyond comprehension. Let me set the scene. I have a 50-acre farm. However, my house sits very close to the road I live on. While I have no neighbors on either side of me (thank GOD!) I do have neighbors who live across the road. The ones who live across and to the left of me are older and while they are in their yard fairly often, are quiet and mind their own business. The neighbors across and to the right of me are an entirely different story. (And then my in-laws live next door to them! Ugh!) These neighbors somehow have three generations living in a garage

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! Let me just take a minute and thank you all for following along with my insanity. I know this blog has been all over the place, but if you truly know me, that tracks. If you're new here, welcome! Jump right in, take a seat, and get comfortable. Sit back and open yourself to my personal brand of crazy. So, how ya doing? I ask this question quite often but rarely get responses. I promise you guys are allowed to let me know what's going on in your lives, too! I'm going to take a moment and recap here just to catch everyone up on the constant stream of 'what the fuck' and 'oh, my God' that has been going on in my life over the past year or so. In May 2023 my father became ill. I took off work for a little over three weeks to go to Kentucky to see if I could help with his care and to look after my mother, a stage four cancer patient. We thought he was on the mend and in June I headed back to Delaware. As it turns out, he was not getti

Good evening, my Lovelies! Let me start this blog off by saying I am in some kind of mood tonight! Whew! The sarcastic bitch is highly prominent and I am SUCH a joy to be around! I certainly hope your little corner of the world isn't occupied by someone similar. If so, may the odds be ever in your favor. Do I know what's put me in this mood? Not entirely. I can tell you it has been exacerbated by not being listened to when I have given clear direction as to my wants, needs, and expectations. Also, there was food involved and there are just certain times when it is safer to set the food I want in front of me and back away slowly. I used to think the hangry thing was something mostly prevalent in my family. However, in the past ten years or so I've found that many more are affected by this than I ever imagined. Mind-boggling! Tonight's issue wasn't so much the need for food as it was the need for specific food. It also had much more to do with the highly frustrating d

Good morning, my Lovelies! Oh, my goodness! I can hardly believe it has been a month since I blogged. I've been completely and utterly swamped with life lately. How about you? Has life been good? Are you getting enough sleep? Are you drinking your water? If not - get your ass up and go get a bottle! Yeesh! I have spent the past month and a half going through my parents' belongings. It is unbelievably hard to decide what to keep, what to give away, what to sell. And while I totally get that my parents had fifty-five years worth of memories and belongings here, I find myself astounded daily that they managed to cram so much of those fifty-five years into a tiny, two-bedroom apartment and storage shed. It has been Hermione's magic purse around here. Every time I think I have a piece of furniture, a closet, or a room cleared out, I find more things hiding. My parents were prime hoarders, but I swear you would never have known it. My parents' home was always a spotless littl

Good evening, my Lovelies! How the hell are ya doing? I am still drained but feel I'm slowly coming back to myself. I know that once I finally return home it will help me immensely. I'll get there. I just have to get through some things here in Kentucky first. While my life is still obviously in a whirlwind, I hope you are finding yourself with smooth sailing. Other than the obvious, what have I been up to? Let's see... I've been out on a couple of "dates." (Even the hubs calls them dates. Chill.) I got a new tattoo and now have tats on both ass cheeks. I also did something I've been thinking about doing for quite some time now. I fully stepped outside my comfort zone and got my nipples pierced. Everyone thinks I'm crazy, that I've lost my mind. Maybe. But I will tell you this, getting that done gave me a sense of empowerment that I've not felt in a long damn time. It was the boost I needed at the time I needed it. Did it hurt? Absolutely. Will

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! I know. I know! It has been almost a full month since I've blogged. It was seriously not my intention to go that long without clearing my head and hopefully entertaining you all with some funny and/or crazy things. Alas, here we are. I hope you all have been doing well and that your little corner of the world has been a bright and happy place! If you've been with me for a while you know I've been having the hardest six months of my life. My father passed away in November and I moved in with my mother to care for her as she battled cancer. I left my husband and children back east and tried my hardest to manage two households that were 900 miles apart. On top of the physical needs she had, there was cooking, cleaning, chauffering, scheduling, mediating (the hubs and the youngest), financial managing, and all manner of other things. I've also continued to try to write which unfortunately has been spotty, at best. It has not been easy. Not by an

Good morning, my Lovelies! It is Sunday morning and I'm in a hell of a mood. I hate this. I hate feeling pissed off at myself and everyone else, but that is where I'm at. I sat here this morning and debated even writing this, but I had to get it out of my head. On top of feeling pissed at everyone and everything, I'm feeling wholly inadequate.  I'm sure we all go through times of feeling that way. But today it is hitting me like a damn bomb going off in my head and heart. I, quite simply, will never be enough. (And I'm not fishing here. I know I will receive multiple messages from people telling me that I most definitely am enough. Just...don't.) Here are the intrusive thoughts that have been floating in my head this morning, in no particular order: I will never be smart enough.  I will never be pretty enough. I will never be thin enough. I will never be talented enough. I will never be successful enough. The only consolation I've come up with is that I will

Greetings, my Lovelies! Yes, I know it has been a while. Life has been kicking me in the balls lately and I'll be honest, I just haven't had it in me to tap into my thoughts and emotions. Let me take just a minute to check in with you. Are you doing alright? Are you getting enough sleep? Have you been drinking your water?  Yeah, that's what I thought. Hang in there. We're all in this together. There's been so much since I last blogged that I truly have no idea where to begin. If you're following me on my other social media outlets, you know I'm still in Kentucky taking care of my mother. I've done some extremely difficult things in my life, but this? Well, this may very well be the most difficult thing I've ever done. I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss home.  I can't seem to think clearly anymore. Wait, let me try that again. You see, I don't know if my ADHD brain has ever allowed me to think clearly. Let's go with...I can't