Music Tells My Stories

Good morning, my Lovelies and welcome to Thursday! May today bring you happiness and peace with the world around you, or, alternately, alcohol, or whatever other coping mechanisms you use, to deal with the chaos of the day. There are times when I know exactly what I want and how to go about getting it. Questioning my decision would never occur to me because I’m so decisive. And there are other times where I have a good idea of what I want and can reason out a decision, whether that’s by listing the pros and cons or just going with my gut feeling. Then there are other times where I’m just clueless. Times where I only see bits and pieces of the puzzle and not the full picture. And it never fails that when I start trying to put that puzzle together without knowing what it should look like, I inevitably find my puzzle is missing pieces! So, this week I’ve kind of found myself in between rationing and being fucking clueless! What the hell am I talking about? Well, I’m getting my fir...

Good morning, my Lovelies! Is the sun shining in your part of the world this morning? I hope so. If not, go out and make your own sunshine! No better way to do that than to offer someone a smile! So, last week I had my blog prepared days in advance of its release. I was excited to be ahead of schedule for a change. This week? Yeah, not only am I not ahead, but I'm late! My apologies! It seems it has been one thing after another this week and I just haven't been able to get on track. One instance of how things got off track for me this week is when my husband and I found ourselves with a rare few hours alone. Now...as it is most definitely a rare occurrence, we planned to take advantage of our time. Unfortunately, we were cockblocked by my father-in-law. (Damn it!) Listen, one of the easiest ways to get on my bad side is to come in my house, uninvited, I might add, and start bitching at me over things I have no control over, nor want any control over. Let me explain. My father-i...

Good morning, my Lovelies! How ya doing? Life good? Are you staying hydrated? Getting enough exercise? I hope so because I only want the best for you! (I should probably ask myself these questions, right?)  Have you ever had something that you wanted or needed, or something that you were doing, and were hesitant to vocalize and share with those around you? If you've been with me on this journey for a while now, you'll know where I'm going with this. (Also, if you're new here, I encourage you to go back to the beginning of my blog so that you not only know more about me but can see how I've progressed over the past year. Year? Holy shit!) Recently some of my co-workers found out about my side hustle. I can absolutely guarantee you that none of the people I work with would have ever guessed that I write lady porn in my free time.  You see, the thoughts in my head are rarely spoken out loud unless you are a close friend, and to look at me you would likely only see a 47...

Good evening, my Lovelies! How's life treating ya? I hope things are well in your little corner of the world and that something amazing happened in your life this week. Just to let you know how my week is going, this is the fourth time that I've re-written this blog today. I can't seem to find my words and it is driving me crazy. This has been a struggle week for me. I'm exhausted. Simply exhausted. I'm walking around in a fog and it is killing me. I don't know about y'all, but I absolutely love mornings. I love the feel of the house when everyone is still asleep. Getting my cup of coffee and firing up my laptop, knowing that I've got some time in peaceful solitude to do some writing before the chaos of the day hits is...well, for me, it is absolutely amazing. I can accomplish so much! The problem is, I only get to do that on the weekends. My normal morning routine has me waking at 5:00 (sometimes earlier depending on the stubbornness of my body) and hea...

Good evening, my Lovelies! How ya doing? I hope you're well, and I hope you've had an amazing week. Mine? Eh. It is what it is. Maybe next week will be better, right? Now, this blog may not ring any bells with some of my readers, but for those of you who have been with your partner, spouse, significant other, for a long time, this one is going to ring like the bells of Notre Dame.  Ya know how wonderful things can be when a relationship begins? For the most part, everything is hearts and flowers and happiness. You can't imagine that your person would ever do anything that would annoy you so much you'd want to smack the shit out of them. Uh-huh, I can see the wheels turning in the minds of those of you who are in a long-term relationship.  Let me share a little background with you. When I was around 16 I had my first experience with misophonia. What is misophonia? Here is the best definition that I've found for it: Misophonia: A strong reaction to specific sounds. Mi...

Good morning, my Lovelies! So, I’m going to cut through the crap and get right to this. (Not that I don’t hope you’ve had a wonderful week because I do, I promise.) Today the entirety of Delmarva woke up to a thick blanket of fog. (The photo below is very mild compared to what I drove through most of the way to work.) Actually, there has been some amount of fog every morning this week, but today was by far the worst. It surrounded my truck with a suffocating wall and made my anxiety spike. I had the thought that trying to see through the fog and find a clear path is a decent parallel to how my life is feeling right now. Then I thought, no, that isn’t exactly correct, either. You see, right now I feel as if even with the lifting of the metaphorical fog in my life, I still wouldn’t know which path to follow. It is incredibly frustrating to me to not be able to just do what I want to do. Right now, the only thing I know is that I’m going to have to make some changes and they are going...

Good morning, my Lovelies, and happy Saturday! I hope you've had a good week and that you get the rest and relaxation you deserve this weekend. I've had another one of those "I have no idea what I want to talk about in my blog" kind of weeks. I wonder why there are times that this flows so easily and why there are times that I struggle to form a single thought? Whatever the reason, here I am struggling to find my topic. Maybe I don't really need a topic? Maybe getting on here and rambling will somehow make my words form and my train of thought connect? Or not...as I sit and stare at the blinking cursor that is taunting me, laughing at me, knowing that my synapses aren't sparking yet this morning. No. I definitely need a topic. How about one we've visited before? This week I made a post that was sparked by a conversation I had about my books. You see, I've been told several times now that there is too much sex in my books. Now, obviously, my writing and...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! I hope with all my heart that you have had a wonderful and fun-filled week. I don't think I've said it recently and I don't think I can say it enough, but thank you to each and every one of you who follow me and all my insanity. Your support is appreciated more than you will ever know! I have news! Many of you will be excited by this as I know you've been waiting and waiting and waiting. Mostly because I kept promising and promising and promising, and well? Shit does and did happen. Anyway, what's my news? I finally (whoooo!) got Across the Field, book four in the Cassidy Brothers series, back from my editor! What does that mean? It means it won't be long now until I can publish this little jewel and get it into your hands! I do have some cleanup to do on my story. (Was it or was it not a good idea having an editor who is a huge baseball fan and baseball history buff, editing a baseball romance book? The jury is still out.) He called...

Good morning, my Lovelies! I hope that life has treated you kindly, that you've found something to be happy about, and that you've been the reason that someone has smiled this week. All things considered, this has definitely been a better week for me mentally. Though I'm still not where I really want to be, I am certainly in a more positive frame of mind than I was last week. Today I wanted to take a moment and acknowledge the fact that I have been getting more and more readers on my Patreon account. It is wonderful and I'm excited about it. I work hard on the things I write - my books, my stories, my poems, and yes, even this blog. To see that my work is being read is a huge boost to my psyche. I've also been picking up a few more blog readers here and there around the world and that is another boost and step in the right direction. So let me take another moment and send my newest readers in Ireland and Switzerland a warm welcome. (I'm still waiting on Canada a...

Good evening, my Lovelies! I hope this blog finds you doing well and that you have been having the best of weeks. Hell, I wish this week found me doing well and having the best of weeks, too. Alas, that is not the case. I told y'all from the beginning that I was going to be open and honest with you, so here we go.  I'm struggling this week. Actually, I've been struggling for longer than that, but this week, no matter how hard I try to look on the bright side, to find something positive, I can't quite seem to do it.  My mental health has definitely been on edge lately and this past week I've felt I was spiraling more than usual.  There hasn't been anything new going on that I can decisively pinpoint as being an accelerant to this spiral. I mean, it is mostly the same old shit around here. Home, work, health, etc - same, same, same. There was even a conversation this week that led me to say these exact words:  "There is no light. There is nothing but the eter...