Music Tells My Stories

Good morning, my Lovelies! Happy Friday! We finally made it and the weekend is just a blink or two away. I hope this blog finds you well and not nearly as stressed as I am at the moment. I know, I know. It always seems as if I'm stressed. But here lately it has been more than my ADHD brain can handle. Because there is so damn much going on right now, my overthinking is at its peak. Yes, I'm an overthinker. (As if you didn't know!) I've now had several conversations about this over recent weeks, one of which, happened just a day or two ago. It was a good conversation and I felt better about everything between me and this person afterward, but it caused me to go do some digging into why I am the way I am and do the things I do. I also spent a little time looking up ways of dealing with an overthinker and in doing so, I discovered just how much I overthink things without realizing I'm doing it! I overthink what people say to me. I overthink what I say to others. Hell, ...

Good evening and happy Saturday! It has been a hot, sultry, stormy kinda day here on the eastern shore and I find that I'm thankful that my work/home life has kept me indoors today. How are things in your neck of the woods? I'm sure you're on the edge of your seat wondering just what I'm going to talk about today so I won't keep you waiting. Today I'm going to talk about one of my anxiety causes. In fact, I'm going to talk about the root issue to most of my anxiety. Everyone all together now, say "fear of abandonment." I know y'all are probably all scratching your heads over that one, but it is what it is. You see, I've had this underlying fear of people leaving me ever since I was a teenager. I'm fairly certain that I know the cause of it, and I'm not even going to try to hide it. You see, there was this boy... Don't throw your hands up at me and tell me to stop. It's the truth! When I was about thirteen I fell for a guy an...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! I hope this blog finds you happy and healthy. I decided after my last blog that there are enough of you who are new here that I feel the need to re-introduce myself. Let's start with the fact that I was born and raised in Kentucky - that's in the USA for my international followers. I grew up in a very small town where pretty much everybody knew everybody. My high school graduating class had less than 100 people in it. I've worked as a carhop, a cashier, and a seamstress, and I've spent many an hour planting, hoeing, cutting, spiking, and hanging tobacco. I went to college after high school and majored in music, but when college party life got the better of me, I walked away. My life took a drastic turn the day I was hired to be a legal secretary at a local law firm and then decided to go back to school and get a paralegal degree. And yes, I worked for a number of years as a paralegal and office manager. And, of course, I do none of this now ...

Good morning, my Lovelies! How ya doin'? I hope you're well. I hope you're healthy and happy. And I really hope that you find a reason to smile today and that you pass that smile along to someone else. You never know when something so simple can make someone's day. What's been going on with me? In some ways, nothing, and in some ways, everything. I've just recently returned from my unplanned trip to Kentucky. For the most part, it was a rough trip, a rough stay, and while I don't particularly want to talk about the reasons I was there, I do want to address something that happened. And what was that? I was sitting at the hospital talking to my family back home when the elevator doors opened and my ex-husband stepped out. Now, if you've followed my blog for a long time you know that I am and will continue to remain friends with every person I've ever been in a relationship of any kind with - except for one. He must have really hurt me, right? Most peop...

Good morning, my Lovelies! To say that the last couple of weeks have been a test for me would be an understatement. I hope things have been much better for you in your part of the world. As of this morning, I am still with my parents in Kentucky, but I should be heading home next week. I'm going to share something with you and I'm uncertain where to begin. Have you ever had someone give you "ick" feelings? I'm not just talking about "eww, this person isn't for me." I'm talking about skin crawling can barely stand to be in the same room with them. I'm talking about the possibility that there is something buried deep inside you that knows this person is truly bad, or that they do or have done some seriously bad shit. I've felt this way about someone I've known my entire life for as long as I can remember. (And before you ask, no, there is no avoiding this person, although I sometimes go for very long stretches without seeing them.) I...

Greetings my Lovelies! I know I have been very absent. Believe me when I say it was most definitely not intentional. It has been several weeks since I've actually sat down to blog and I'm feeling the need to pop the top on all the things I've been bottling up. But first, how are you doing? Are you eating and drinking right? Are you getting a little exercise to stretch those muscles and keep your body strong and healthy? Are you talking to someone about what's going on in your life? What you're feeling? I hope so. We all need to be able to unload every once in a while. Some of you may know, and some of you may not, but I'm not at home in Delaware right now curled up all snuggly in my bed. No. I received the bat signal last week and made a trip back home to Kentucky to care for my elderly parents. It seems that my father, in his efforts to care for his wife, the love of his life for over 55 years, has been failing to care for himself. He is not well, and after mul...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! Holy crap! I've managed to put out a blog without waiting weeks between. Who AM I? I hope everyone is doing well and that you're having the best of weeks! I'm good today. I know, I can't always say that to you and mean it. I appreciate the fact that you all allow me to share my world and whatever craptacular/spectacular thing is going on in it with you on a regular basis. This week I wanted to share a frustration with you. Actually, it isn't really a frustration so much as an annoyance. And what is that? Talking on the phone. (Or, not talking on the phone...) If you're Gen X, talking on the phone isn't a big deal - been there, done that for many a year now. Millennials? Eh... They'll do it if they absolutely have to. But you know they're silently chanting, "Dear God, please don't make me talk on the phone. Hurry up. I'm dying. Are you done now? Is it over? Can I hang up?" Any generation below that and th...

Good afternoon, my Lovelies! Happy freaking Saturday! Y'all...I just looked at how long it has been since I blogged. I'm sorry. All I can say is...LIFE. So...how ya doinnnnn'??? I'm great - at least right now. That may change in a few minutes. Hormone fluctuations are a bitch. But, for now, all is sunshine and roses. For those of you who don't know, I've actually started trying to take a little better care of myself. Actually...I started this a while ago, but I'm finally beginning to feel the changes. I'm eating better, drinking my water, and I just recently started back to the gym. Yay, me! One thing that I haven't shared with you all is that at one point in time, I worked at a gym/fitness center. And as part of the perks, I worked out all the damn time. Yes, I was still overweight, but I felt great. Working out can be very addicting and I definitely found myself craving that high. I was working there when my second baby came along and once she arri...

Good morning, my Lovelies! How have you been? Good? Are you drinking your water and doing all those self-care things? I hope so. How am I? I'm here. I could go into all kinds of detail about how exhausted I am from being the one that holds everything together and being the one that everyone depends on, but evidently when I discuss these things I come across as whiney.  Who knew that having rational, calm discussions about what's happening in your life and how it makes you feel is classified as whiney? I certainly didn't.  I've never considered myself a whiney person.  I'm asked to do things at work (things clearly outlined in my job description), and I do them. I'm asked to do additional things at work, and I do them. I ask to be provided with the materials and equipment needed to do my job. If these aren't provided, I usually find a workaround. I certainly take on more than I should have to, do more than I have to, and for the most part, do so with a smile ...

Good morning, my Lovelies, and Happy Thursday! Gracious! I hardly know where to begin. Loki has entered the atmosphere. Chaos has been ruling my world for the past couple of days. Actually, let's make it the past couple of weeks. So I guess let's start with, how are you? I hope you're well and that your life has been much less of a shit show than mine has been.  What's been going on? Let me break it down. My work (my full-time, grown-up, put your big girl panties on and deal with it job) has had me running all over the state lately. I hardly know which direction I'm going most of the time. As of today, there is no end in sight and I have no expectation of things calming down any time soon. I'm working from home today and I've now had to go into town twice and it isn't even eleven a.m. (Please note "working from home" normally means that I don't have to leave the house until my job is done for the day.) I've had trouble logging into my w...